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Sunday, April 27, 2025
The LAST ACT, one possible dangerous future, a s-f short story
Dangerous Possible Future....
The LAST ACT
Robert scanned his holoscreen, then mentally net-keyed his weapon. Crouching behind his own cyrex shield not far from other comrades, he not so much waited for the crisis to micro-second up, but edged virtually closer and closer to its volatile precipice.
His elite space infantry squad of 30 volunteers hadn’t battled yet in this worldwide conflagration, but they were now to the blast point.
Robert keyed in a mild sedative to his blood stream as he waited, needed a little calm; looked back inwardly at the visual horror of the last few weeks, didn’t need to call up any vids on his helmet’s screen. His own memory abyssed enough.
The first horrific attack of the new world war had come almost simultaneously 6 weeks before--a sudden light-swift missile exchange that had almost simultaneously obliterated Washington D.C. and greater LA including Edwards Space Base--where he had first trained when he joined the Force.
And, on the other side, Beijing, Shanghai, and Hong Kong blasted to their own fiery hell.
D.C.’s destruction had been so invasive that much of the western Chesapeake Bay vaporized, leaving a strange desert of broiled seascape.
The first stark vid images reminded him of southern stretches of Martian desert where he had done his basic 3 years earlier. Despite the swirling thermonuclear trash in the atmosphere, his whole crew had flown in on the next shuttle from Darkside, the slang term for Moon base 21.
He was emotionally numb, knew it was futile for him to accept the offered return pass; for his parents, two brothers and young sister, all of whom lived in LA, were now not even a shade of a shadow. He didn’t mourn; it was too hellishly unreal.
No one knew who had actually started the conflagration. President Sherman and Prime Minister Chi-shek both blamed each other. But yet after that brief billion-human'd holocaust, they had e-stemmed from their mile-down bunkers and forged a nantex-thin truce.
Wasn't that the nature of debacled politics to carry on over the scorched bone meal of multi-millions of the innocent?
Both governments were still recovering, when Robert’s space ship touched down in southern Texas, the alternate space port to vaporized Edwards. Some hardened spacers were already gallows-humoring each other--"What's the..."
The vids stated that the two nations were dealing with their multi-millions of missing dead, and half a billion severely injured; all hospitals and medvac sites crowded even hallways and closets and storage bins with the wounded.
In Virginia, whole cities had been turned into vast field hospitals. Santa Barbara County in California had become a vast cyrex-mode temp city filled with millions of refugees fleeing the far out edges of the LA basin. Untold numbers were already experiencing radiation sickness.
So the two leaders had agreed to a temporary truce; then some UN negotiator had thought up the tournament and both sides quickly settled on this ultimate game. The U.S. and China would each choose 30 representatives to battle in the ancient way of symbolic war.
Hopefully, this would spare any more civilian casualties. Rather ironic that it was mainly in modern civilized war that multi-millions of civilians got slaughtered, often by the good guys.
Most people on the street made cynical remarks, didn’t think their leaders were sincere. It's only a PR cover, another crap game of political lies. 'They've' agreed to the game, not to solve this holocaust but to delay their chances of losing.
'They' want time to get more weapons ready, to pull a sudden poker move over the enemy. Yet in the higher realms of political intrigue, the tournament concept was a diplomatic coup, even lowering the belligerent criticism still railing forth from other UN member states.
Canadians and Mexican authorities were issuing radiation suits and warning their citizens not to drink surface water. The two enemies’ harsh diplomatic exchanges continued with their usual verbal war of veiled words, misleading propaganda, and out-wrong name-calling, even while agreeing on the ancient method—the hero’s challenge.
Pop vids reminded the less educated populace that this aged form of battle--"the Tournament"--came from ancient contests, probably the most glorified saga in the ancient Judeo-Christian Bible story where Philistines had challenged Israelites with their taller-than-life champion, Goliath, and dared one Israelite to come against him in single combat. The Israelites sent a young man, David.
Yeah, Robert, thought; I’m now a participant in a modern replay of that ancient way of 'symbolic' war.
But glancing down at the vaporizer he held tightly, he wondered who he was, whether David or Goliath or a hybrid mix. And the actual battle wouldn't be symbolic at all, except for the Orwellian politicians.
But he had no regrets. Had volunteered for this ultimate contest—out of the black hole of numbed grief for his family, his friends, his ravaged country. He still couldn't really feel at all--not any hate, no revenge.
His family's deaths were suspended in pause mode. He felt only an endless blankness, a bottomless pit within, yet out of that came this call to stop the carnage.
Strangely too, in dark contrast, one side of him actually looked forward to this challenge--for the exciting contest, a real battle, no more fight-sims, no more endless parading about the fields at Camp Pendleton, Cal, or flying to Mars again for another set of wilderness maneuvers in southern craters.
This battle might be his only chance to actually fight--almost face to face-- like soldiers had battled a century ago, a millennium ago, 4,000 years ago. At least it was sure as hell better than getting turned to crisp in a micro-second by another thermonuclear exchange.
Battle strategies and strategic maneuvers from a hundred historic wars Robert had studied lasered back into him now. As a history professor at UCLA, he had taught European history. Sometimes small attacks were the volatile hinges on which the rest of history swung.
Robert's ruminating of this took up only a lesser side of his consciousness. Mainly, he focused on the scree-strewn landscape and the gray enemy shields a few hundred meters away, looking for unusual movement.
Up-to-the-second news flashed from the net communication unit of his battle suit, the images and word lines in front of his eyes, like strange aliens flitting over the landscape ahead of him.
Now, the instant feed to his cerebral cortex warned him the Chinese soldiers were moving behind their shields. Though his compstat would warn him before any attack, he still watched cat-like, fixed on the enemy cyrex shields across the landscape to the east.
Net: Warning over. False alarm; enemy is only exercising. Robert relaxed his tense muscles and briefly glanced northward where in hazed-distance he could vaguely see the massed bulk of the Himalayan range of mountains, though their peaks were obscured by heavy smog--the aftermath of many missile detonations and smoke from countless fire-storms hundreds of feet high.
Ash fell intermittently, dark twisted flakes. How many contained traces of human DNA? Unconsciously, he brushed his right arm and shoulder. And refused to think of his family.
Huge slashes on the sides of the range were barely visible where whole sections of tmountains had avalanched down in the midst of the bombing holocaust. He avoided looking southwest. One of America’s many missiles had misfired and taken out northeastern India. He tried not to think of the millions dead there.
Strange that this high plateau, known in the past as Tibet, should be chosen as the Tournament site. 3 days earlier, he and his fellow warriors had been space shot to the location in a carrier shuttle.
How had the Chinese gotten here? Maybe they had been here all along, though supposedly Tibet had become a neutral independent state in 2030.
Now both sides crouched at the precipice of their own death or victory. And in front of them in time’s future arc lay the possible new life or the imploding nova of their fiery planet’s demise.
Robert suddenly winced and held a hand up to his helmet. Unexpectedly and frightful in its overwhelming allness, a thought-message was blasting into Robert’s consciousness.
A nearby comrade also must have received the message, as he dropped to the ground and removed his helmet and put his hands up to his head.
Despite the all-pervasive message, Robert commanded his fellow soldier, "Get your helmet back on!"
The transcendent warning burned too intensely to vocalize or mind print, unless one was to write with a volcano’s explosive power or a cosmic supernova.
His instant net feed said that around the globe billions of humans were stopped in their activities, transfixed by the thought-message. It appeared that it was worldwide. But from where?
Immediately, Robert decided to obey. He wasn't a believer, but this Voice wasn't earthly. He stooped and lay his large weapon at his feet on top of the ash-covered scree. About him, others lay down their weapons and knelt. Several Chinese came from behind their shields and also knelt down.
No one made an attempt to pray to whatever gods they believed in. Would a person try and pour water at the bottom of the Pacific?!
Totally immersed, pressured--opened in their consciousness, they humbled before the transcendent omniscient experience. One of his fellow soldiers lay down on the ground so overwhelmed he almost lost consciousness.
A Chinese soldier in the distance, to the right threw his weapon to the ground, rushed past his fellow soldiers and, arms raised, ran northward toward the blurred mountains.
In contrast, Robert felt a great sense of peace fill him and the battle-upness of moments before vaporized, the numbness vanished. Calmly, he tabbed deconstruct on his vision screen and his cyrex barrier disappeared. Others were doing the same.
Now they stood face to face with their enemy challengers and walked toward them. His opposite who had briefly knelt now rose, was in a formidable-looking suit, though it seemed old-style, still had visible air tanks and was obviously pressurized—bad old days. His father had told him about those has-beens. His father! Anguish filled him, his gone family...
Focusing instead on the enemy in front of him, Robert walked toward the bulky individual wondering what his opponent was like. The Chinese combatant advanced toward him.
Robert realized that he would have difficulty seeing the enemy’s face in the smogged glare of the day and keyed in to his net to see if there was any stat-intel—none yet...
He stopped in front of the cloaked figure, raised a hand to shake, and then felt foolish and dropped his arm. The enemy rubbed one arm across its facial plate.
Robert almost stepped back; it was a young woman! She had a small nose and intense eyes; was probably no more than 21 years old, must be slender with such delicate facial features, and weighed down under all that old war suit.
She smiled up at Robert, her eyes like brown velvet. She bowed and then extended her hand. They shook, stared at each other for what seemed like minutes, and then both started to talk at once.
First, Robert and she exchanged net code. Her name was Baozhai, from Macau.
Briefly, Robert recalled the vids—much of coastal China had been turned into a burning chaos, vast amounts of ocean water turned to steam.
Baozhai was a draftee, former biophysics engineer, loved 4--dimensional chess and ancient water color painting. They shared personal vids and a long dialogue ensued.
Even though there were 58 others doing so, Robert and Baozhai were, momentarily, as if the only two humans existing.
He told her of his university background, being a lecturer in 17th century European history, then a volunteer for the 15th Martian exploration mission, the one educator on the trip.
And how later he had become a soldier, why he liked to study ancient battlefields, and his love for historical fiction vids.
Their brief dialogue was interrupted. New orders came screening to him from Central Command. Baozhai’s face disappeared and images of Central Command appeared in his face view screen.
A large man with gnarled hands stood facing him in an underground bunker—“This is General Stafford of Omaha SAC representing the President; no doubt you have also encountered the overwhelming invasive message that has hacked into our systems and invaded our minds.
Many religious people are claiming it’s a direct revelation from God. The State Department is doing intensive research as to the message and to its real source.
You are cautioned to stay on standby--no hasty action is to be taken to engage the enemy unless directly attacked. Nor are you, however, to halt preparation for the Challenge until more information can be netted. Please standby; more orders will be forthcoming.”
The verbal message ended, the Stars and Stripes waved across Robert’s vision screen, then vanished, and he could again see Baozhai.
She was staring up at him intently, her eyes almost too large for her face and diminutive nose. Evidently she hadn’t been able to access his message, nor had she received one from her government.
“It was a message to us from our President,” Robert said to her, “the usual standby with notification that everyone seems to have gotten the inner consciousness message we did. Some claim it was God. The higher-ups aren’t convinced though; they think it may be a new hacknet from your government.
Me, I’m an atheist. I’ve been to Mars too many times, never seen any evidence of a higher power, only lots of space, dark matter, galaxies, and planets.”
Baozhai frowned with a slight wrinkling of the bridge of her nose. She ignored his accusation against her government and focused on his skepticism. “I’ve studied plenty of brain matter in my biophysics lab; I never encountered an individual.
She then smiled. “If I studied your brain matter, Robert, I don’t think I would find you either.”
He laughed, both at her impertinence and at the insightful twist she had put to his skepticism. “Okay, I see your point; I did study four years of philosophy, Kant and all that about practical reason; I retract my rather hasty judgment."
"Rather let me say, that based on my study of nature and history—especially wars of the past, and now this last few weeks of apocalypse, I don’t see any Intelligence in the Cosmos—none--but what’s inside our helmets,” he said and tapped her head gear impulsively.
She stepped back.
“Excuse me, Baozhai.”
She looked intently at him for a moment and then smiled. “I see. Me too. Have you traveled to my country? Before the holocaust?” It was such a stupid statement, she reddened. He found himself wanting to see more of her underneath that goliath suit.
“No, except for a bunch of missions to out Marsport, I pretty much hunker down near L.A.” L.A.! The holocaust! He cursed and kicked the scree with his left foot. What was he talking to the enemy for?!
The last few weeks drowned back into him; the brief parley with a Chinese soldier on the Tibetan plateau stopped as he again remembered why they were here, and how the strange message had knocked them out of their battle prep.
Baozhai turned away. They were silent for at least 15 minutes. Robert kept glancing about toward other members of his team but most of them were still conferring with other Chinese soldiers.
Several U.S. soldiers had turned and marched back to their staging area; their Chinese counterparts, the same.
Finally, Robert keyed in one of his favorite family vids; one where he and his sister and two brothers had been snorkeling off Santa Catalina Island when they spotted a Great White...
In the background behind him, he heard words.
“…so, I hope you understand,” Baozhai was talking to him, “that when I lost my whole family--older brother, my parents, and grandparents—"
He blugeoned in, “I lost my family too!"
Then he stood not speaking; finally he said, "I’m sorry, Baozhai. How terrible! So much loss for everyone. I didn’t hear the first part of your sentence; I was watching a vid of my family. See." He transmitted the vid to her.
She watched in silence.
"Would you repeat what you first said?” he asked. But she didn't answer.
On the edge of his consciousness, Robert was aware that most of the soldiers on both sides nearby were talking. Above, the gray sky, nothing but intense thermonuclear smog that had lain for many days like a many-bodied snake lair writhing.
Now strangely, it seemed to be lessening, swirling in dirty gray eddies, maybe gradually dissipating.
Baozhai looked up to Robert, her large luminous eyes staring intently into him. Finally she said, "I'm sorry for your loss. I've been thinking of mine only."
He stared back at her, both still living in the Message that seemed to fill their inner selves. Robert spoke again, "You think the Message, this warm command to disperse is from your God?"
As if puzzled, Baozhai pinched in her nose slightly. She put a hand up on his left arm and asked, "Don't you?"
Robert chuckled in spite of himself and their climatic situation, paused, and then took her hand and held it. "Remember, I'm the atheist; you're the believer."
He glanced down toward where he had left his weapon. Now the heavy sleek metal of the death-dealer seemed both trivial and shameful. It was like seeing, suddenly, with compassion's eyes.
Several American soldiers and Chinese were actually joking so loudly, he could hear them in the distance. Others were exchanging contact info. The netfeed in his head chattered.
All of this reminded him of those strange truces like the one two hundred years ago in the American War Between the States. In the midst of one vicious battle, a truce was called; Union and Confederate soldiers stopped shooting and were suddenly only lonely or brash individuals with curiosity and friendliness who called across the former deadline and chatted like old friends in town for the weekend.
Yes, Robert thought, maybe, the most dangerous of games had paused again. But would it last? And what about the Presence? Was that all-in-compassing voice really some sort of spiritual reality or only an ingenuous AI hackjob of the enemy?"
IF real, why hadn't it spoken before the conflagration that flashed away billions of precious humans?!
He focused and looked deeply at Baozhai who was staring up at him still. Somehow words escaped them. Robert turned away and listened to his net, glanced over toward his line of combatants.
Several American soldiers had already deconstructed their shields, packed up their gear, and he saw them walking southeast--probably going to try and escape through Myanmar, and hopefully find a skimmer-ship--maybe even a shuttle--back to the southern U.S.
Robert considered netting them, then discarded the idea. He noticed a couple of Chinese soldiers headed east into that blank horizon.
Then he looked back down again at Baozhai. She was still staring up at him; her wet eyes welling, force-fields of caring. She started to speak, but was cut off by blinding light that blanked out everything.
His suit formed a new cyrex shield—this time around both him and Baozhai. She turned, pulled out a laser to cut through the siding. He shouted, “Don’t! Thermos again!”
The sky whitened until his suit closed his view screen and his meds began operating. An enormous sound, deafening even within his protective suit and shield tsunamied across the landscape. He pulled her to the ground, and switched to full battle mode--netted for a triple shield.
A great thermonuclear wind lashed the plateau, like some cosmic tidal wave. Their cyrex cocoon turned crimson, vibrated, and shrunk. He felt burning inside of his suit. Their cyrex life-pod burrowed deep into the rocky ground and he blacked out.
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When Robert woke to consciousness, at first he thought he was bivouacked in his cyrex on Mars doing another wilderness battle prep, dug in near the copper nano-mines.
But the heat was too intense. Then he felt a suit next to him and the horror all came back to him. Thermo nukes again! He cursed. Another attack had been launched! By whom?
Baozhai was unconscious curved against him. Robert keyed the net, but only got silence. He tried bringing up a damage report of his comrades, no luck. He accessed direct speak but Baozhai didn’t answer. He rubbed her view screen.
Her face was livid and pinched. Her suit must have ruptured, maybe radiation was vipering in right now. He checked her vital signs; injured but the med must be at work.
He called up Med.
Question: When will she become conscious?
Med: Unknown
Question: Is her unconsciousness dangerous or permanent?
Med: Near coma; uncertain length; good vital signs.
Question: May I safely remove our helmets for a short time?
Med: Doubtful; keep brief; radiation levels very high even inside of cyrex habitation.
Robert grimaced, then spoke again with sarcasm.
Question: Why didn't they program you with a little personality?
Med: Unknown
He waited several hours then removed his helmet and hers. Touched her face with his bare hand. No response, but her breathing sounded good and the med-level looked okay.
He locked on their helmets again. What had happened?! Obviously another salvo of massive thermos, but why? Political madness! He spit out curses inside his cocoon. And waited and waited.
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Hours past, the Message's allness faded. Robert tried the net again-- nothing. Then he accessed for an outside data report but his local scan showed only a violent wind buffeting above ground, their little underground sub below a typhooned holocaust.
The vid showed the sky, dark as obsidian. A black snow, nuclear winter raging.
Besides, aching all over, and being slightly nauseous, he angrily talked out loud to himself. “Who violated the Challenge Pact? What of the mysterious Message?"
Could the latter have been a human construct, a Chinese decept to put us off guard? Was he even now being deceived by HER?” He twisted his neck and looked again intently at Baozhai behind her face suit bubble.
Her eyes suddenly opened--dark orbs of intensity. She almost shouted, “We'd never do that. You're the ones who attacked!” So she had been conscious and listening to him.
Robert cursed and shouted back, “Sure, we caused it, all of it—the massacre of Taiwan in 2029, the mass murder in China back in the 1930’s, and, hell, we even caused your Taiping Rebellion in the 1850's,--yeah right! Get a life; go back to your brain cultures and washed-out paintings!”
Despite their closeness, Baozhai’s heavily gloved fist hit at him.
The incongruity of it all—she had actually punched him. He grinned in spite their dire straits and slid up his hands to his shoulders, like some old 20th century outlaw surrendering.
They stared at each for minutes, but finally started talking again; then they slept as their meds worked; woke and ingested rations; talked and tried to ignore thoughts of the hellish outside. Then slept again.
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When Robert woke days later from a Med induced unconsciousness, he checked the net; still no com to the world. He vidded for a look above ground, outside—but only a dark sky gashed, scaled flakes falling very heavily. A gouging pain still cut into his whole left side. Baohzhai was unconscious and medding. He ate and slept again, too.
24 hours later, Robert awoke and reviewed the horror of the last few months. No change in his condition, though the nausea was reduced and his side felt better. But he lay drifting with the shards of his memory until unconsciousness again blanked him out.
He woke again, and again and again—hovering now between stretches of vivid awareness gashed to his inner self, then to long stretches of time when he only breathed and rolled across time like a battered slug.
Several months flew past, while they slept and medded deep underground while in sheol above the thermo winds slashed the sludge of sky.
Finally, Robert awoke; his comp told him that radiation levels were reduced enough for him to take half an hour outside, but no more. He felt his face brush Baozhai’s forehead as he moved. His beard had grown out.
His arm was around her at the shoulder level. She was breathing in and out. It sounded regular. He wanted to jump up and thank someone, but he knew of no one to thank, though the shock of the Message bolted back into his mind.
Robert reconnected his helmet, pushed the rise tab for their life-pod to shift up to the surface of the planet. Then he keyed open their cocoon; the shield pealed back and he looked up to a faded darkened harsh sky flaking down on them, and the landscape which blended to the sky was one huge ashen bowl, one horrific crucible. Visibility looked about 25 meters.
Med: Unsafe, return to emergency habitat.
He forced himself up onto his knees, then stood up, his side still aching, and surveyed the stark grayness looking for his fellow soldiers or other Chinese combatants. Nothing.
He closed the cyrex fabric over Baozhai, keyed in continued meds and requested an alert message if she worsened.
Ignoring Med's repeated warnings about radiation, he hobbled over toward where his comrades had been. Surely they, too, must have had time to key in their survival cocoons before that sudden blast nuclear hit them.
His right ankle ached, wouldn’t be walking far, at least for a few days. Ha! Where would he go anyway?
The plateau stretched into one gray shrouded Rorschach revealing nothing to him other than man's insanity. He kept scanning with his compnet--but only silence, a deathly silence.
What about the Transcendent-Message? But when he keyed the question, his comp behind his ear said, "Unknown."
Somewhere to the north in the smoke lay snow-covered Himalayan mountain peaks, blanked out. No color anywhere. He walked until he felt sick.
Finally, Robert found another cocoon, but a large gash rivened it—the damage so severe, he couldn’t bring himself to look into the death to see who it might have been. Images of his buddies gashed his inner vision.
Since he didn’t believe, there was no prayer to give but only more emptiness, more numbness within him. Vaguely, memories--of his sis, his brothers, his parents, good friends, his squad--tumbled about like many bodies in freefall like when cycling toward Mars in a large troop ship.
Several more cocoons lay flattened, white husks 10 yards further; they had not fully deployed. Instant death. The River Styx or Ragnarok for them.
Robert looked at the devastation all around him and imagined countless mega-cities beyond his vision—countless cataclysms so like the Norse one where the gods lose to enemies of chaos from the realm of death. Though the old Norsemen hadn’t figured on the sheer human evil of brilliant tech ingenuity! No god-enemies need apply.
But hopefully, some of his comrades had survived. But for what purpose? Ash continued to fall. Robert turned and ache-walked back to his new and only comrade, an enemy. He keyed open the cocoon shell and slid in next to his Baozhai. She still lay asleep, breathing evenly.
He no longer had a sense of the Presence. What had happened to It? The many other soldiers? Billions all the world round? He tried the net again. No answer. How many countless dead? How many alive?
He lay still.
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12 hours later Robert woke. But Baozhai wasn’t next to him. He opened the cyrex and scanned the landscape but couldn't see her. Somewhere behind the dirty sky reared the Himalayas, blanked out now by gray. To the east lay a fire storm.
He walked northward hurriedly, favoring his sore ankle. That’s when he came upon her about 100 meters away, inert as stone. He rushed over to her. Her face was grimy and blood was seeping out from an obscene cut mixed with countless gray flakes like cancer cells.
Another bad gash in her arm opened almost to the bone. Obviously, she had been attacked, slashed with a laser. Baozhai’s face stared up into the holocaustic sky, blank and untelling.
Evidently one of his buddies, misunderstanding, had attacked her. But where was he now? Robert ignored his own question and flung himself onto Baozhai commanding Med for extreme measures.
He couldn't bring himself to ask Med for a report. Instead, he hugged her close, his lungs a searing fire and a loss so abyssed, but he couldn't weep. Finally, though he slept.
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When Robert awoke, Baozhai was still unconscious, cradled in his arms, though breathing evenly. The long slits of the wound--from whom?--were sutured, the flesh a pink glaze looking like frosting from a birthday cake of his little sister's. Hell! Family memories and the question of Baozhai's survival drowned him.
He wept.
The first time since he was 7 and his school chum had died in a family skimmer accident. The funeral burial came back to him more starkly clear than any tragic vid.
He could still feel the cold fog of that long-ago morning as the robotic undertaker slivered ground and that thin flat capsule with his buddy's ashes zipped unbidden into the wet greenery of the mortuary ground south of LA.
Robert drifted with his sorrow until sleep came. He woke, slept, woke, and slept again. Then he woke and reflected on his situation and on Baozhai.
He kept eating, followed warnings of Med and exercised within their shelter, didn't venture out anymore; maybe his and Baozhai's doses of radiation hadn't been toxic.
Days and nights etched past. His beard now touched his faceplate. How many days, weeks, had passed? Robert didn't bother to summon the net anymore. He could easily have ordered a shave when Med gave him his daily scrub, but he let it grow. Something to do. Robert sort of smirked at that.
Some Goliath he'd turned out to be. He coughed and then hugged unconscious Baozhai closer.
Who knew if it was day or night? How long did they have before the End?
Or would the damned world survive?
Were there any other humans left?
There must be some somewhere, at least the cursed laser-wielder who had slashed Baozhai.
Where would he have to travel to find other survivors?
South, for sure.
Finally, one day/night, probably months later, maybe even a couple of years, Med told him, "The human being Baozhai will survive. Radiation damage has been reduced. Wounds are healing. She is statistically--"
"Oh, shut up!....uh, sorry; thanks." Robert yelled into the netfeed.
Med didn't respond.
Robert gazed down at Baozhai and wondered how much time they had before more thermo blasts or the beginning of nuclear winter and their own demise, the planet's end.
Despite the gray death still flaking down, and the endless abyss of a world-less, dying future, Robert, the unbeliever, felt a glimmer of transcendent hope, a remembrance of that Presence.
He looked down at sleeping Baozhai where she lay, medding toward health.
And being an inveterate story-catcher, as well as an historian, Robert couldn’t resist smiling when he suddenly thought of a very old, oh so fair story--
what would happen if he kissed her?
by Daniel Wilcox
Thursday, April 10, 2025
Friday, March 14, 2025
My short response to another Christian blog article supporting immoral and unjust actions
MY RSPONSE TO “After Francis: What’s Next in the Vatican?”
By Professor Phillip Jenkins
On ANXIOUS BENCH
a Christian site, which DELETED my comment.
So strange that such Christian sites won’t post comments that
support NT moral truths:_(
Your article oddly states, "...divorce, abortion, clerical celibacy, homosexuality, and same sex marriage, with transgender issues rising on the horizon. A good Pope will change church stances on those things, a bad pope won’t, end of story. Onward to the Third Vatican Council!."
Well, changing back "clerical celibacy" to what Christianity originally supported, would be a powerfully good, true action.
But all of those other topics are not only contrary to the New Testament moral truths of Jesus, some of them are scientifically wrong.
For instance, biologically there are only 2 sexual genders, man or woman. Check out for instance, Professor Jerry Coyne of the University of Chicago and Richard Dawkins' many recent articles and book.
While it is sad that a few humans do have gender dysphoria, there are no nonbinary humans, no individuals with a penis, etc. who are women, no individuals who have ovaries and a womb who are men.
The immoral actions of abortion and divorce have become rampant in modern society. Abortion (except in obvious tragic biological errors such as tubular pregnancy) is the killing of human lives.
Divorce was condemned by Jesus. Yet many Christian couples divorce causing hardship, sorrow, and, often, severe problems for their children.
Strangely, divorce has become so bad, that now Protestant Christians in some surveys actually have more divorces than non-religious individuals.
Jesus weeps.
In the LIGHT,
Daniel Wilcox
By Professor Phillip Jenkins
On ANXIOUS BENCH
a Christian site, which DELETED my comment.
So strange that such Christian sites won’t post comments that
support NT moral truths:_(
Your article oddly states, "...divorce, abortion, clerical celibacy, homosexuality, and same sex marriage, with transgender issues rising on the horizon. A good Pope will change church stances on those things, a bad pope won’t, end of story. Onward to the Third Vatican Council!."
Well, changing back "clerical celibacy" to what Christianity originally supported, would be a powerfully good, true action.
But all of those other topics are not only contrary to the New Testament moral truths of Jesus, some of them are scientifically wrong.
For instance, biologically there are only 2 sexual genders, man or woman. Check out for instance, Professor Jerry Coyne of the University of Chicago and Richard Dawkins' many recent articles and book.
While it is sad that a few humans do have gender dysphoria, there are no nonbinary humans, no individuals with a penis, etc. who are women, no individuals who have ovaries and a womb who are men.
The immoral actions of abortion and divorce have become rampant in modern society. Abortion (except in obvious tragic biological errors such as tubular pregnancy) is the killing of human lives.
Divorce was condemned by Jesus. Yet many Christian couples divorce causing hardship, sorrow, and, often, severe problems for their children.
Strangely, divorce has become so bad, that now Protestant Christians in some surveys actually have more divorces than non-religious individuals.
Jesus weeps.
In the LIGHT,
Daniel Wilcox
Monday, March 10, 2025
Reflection on Pessimistic book of Ecclesiastes, (so contrary to witnesses of early Quakers)
Ecclesiastes 1
New International Version
"Everything Is Meaningless
1 The words of the Teacher,[a] son of David, king in Jerusalem:
2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.”
Other skeptical thinkers for 2,500 human years have claimed similar hopelessness.
OR
have suggested illusionary images of Death...
Such as that each of us billions of humans when we die are like
billions of waves that roll in on the Pacific Ocean tide...
BUT a series of waves of the tide of the ocean are TOTALY Non-sentient, NOT Aware,
Don't have deep life experiences and stories, Don't have a keen sense of MORAL REALISM, OUGHT, the IDEAL.
A wave or dead leaf are only physical objects.
Lifeless.
Billions of the waves and leaves can come and go--and except brief impersonal life in the case of a leaf, NOTHING LIVES NOW
ALL is LOST!!!!!!!
HOWEVER in the case of all humans
(and maybe a few other cases of higher animals?
ALL MEANINGFULLNESS
of humans is
LOST:-(
Our bodies mean zilch!
BUT to LOSE OUGHT, AWARENESS,
Our Stories and all that we have learned in 78+ years,
HOW Despairing, How Absurd.
......
So, that's why billions of humans, including Quakers hope for AFTER LIFE.
Otherwise, we as a species are in reality, a ZERO, Nilhism. :-((
All the facts of Life say, No existence after Our Brain ceases.
Just reflecting on all of this, seems so impossible to imagine or understand!
How can
Each of us PERSONS
be ONLY " mere breath, mere vapor" as the Teacher claims.
Most of my consciousness, every moment, thinks I won't become ZERO!
But I was with my dad when he died. A ccouple of hours later, the attendents came into our living room, rolled
his stark lifeless body onto a sheet, picked up the roll of bones and skin and hauled it out.
BUT Billions going back at least a million years experienced this same anguish, same absurd irrational
and No longer EXIST--),
were only transient vapor
like the Teacher of the Old Testamen/Jewwish Bible claimS.
My last gasp for MEANING and HOPE is that G_D--U.R. is far more AWARE
than any intelligent physical species in the vast Cosmos.
!
And that G_D
Is EVERLASTING INTELLIGENT PROCESS who will carry billions
of brief intelligent moral individual lives in its memory!
I know this is a 'hail, mary'-Hope (very unlikely based on all known science :-(
IF the TEACHER
is correct, then I agree with the philosopher Albert Camus that REALITY IS
ABSURD!!
IF Reality and Life came about by CHANCE or DETERMINISM
Camus stated that he Rebels against this Reality
and
EMBRACE OUGHT (that which is NOT subjective, NOT relative like most atheists and anti-human nihilists Claim.
In the HOPE of the LIGHT,
Daniel Wilcox
seaquaker@gmail.com
http://infiniteoceanoflightandlove.blogspot.com/
Writing Websites: http://psalmsyawpshowls.com
http://seaquaker.com
New International Version
"Everything Is Meaningless
1 The words of the Teacher,[a] son of David, king in Jerusalem:
2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.”
Other skeptical thinkers for 2,500 human years have claimed similar hopelessness.
OR
have suggested illusionary images of Death...
Such as that each of us billions of humans when we die are like
billions of waves that roll in on the Pacific Ocean tide...
BUT a series of waves of the tide of the ocean are TOTALY Non-sentient, NOT Aware,
Don't have deep life experiences and stories, Don't have a keen sense of MORAL REALISM, OUGHT, the IDEAL.
A wave or dead leaf are only physical objects.
Lifeless.
Billions of the waves and leaves can come and go--and except brief impersonal life in the case of a leaf, NOTHING LIVES NOW
ALL is LOST!!!!!!!
HOWEVER in the case of all humans
(and maybe a few other cases of higher animals?
ALL MEANINGFULLNESS
of humans is
LOST:-(
Our bodies mean zilch!
BUT to LOSE OUGHT, AWARENESS,
Our Stories and all that we have learned in 78+ years,
HOW Despairing, How Absurd.
......
So, that's why billions of humans, including Quakers hope for AFTER LIFE.
Otherwise, we as a species are in reality, a ZERO, Nilhism. :-((
All the facts of Life say, No existence after Our Brain ceases.
Just reflecting on all of this, seems so impossible to imagine or understand!
How can
Each of us PERSONS
be ONLY " mere breath, mere vapor" as the Teacher claims.
Most of my consciousness, every moment, thinks I won't become ZERO!
But I was with my dad when he died. A ccouple of hours later, the attendents came into our living room, rolled
his stark lifeless body onto a sheet, picked up the roll of bones and skin and hauled it out.
BUT Billions going back at least a million years experienced this same anguish, same absurd irrational
and No longer EXIST--),
were only transient vapor
like the Teacher of the Old Testamen/Jewwish Bible claimS.
My last gasp for MEANING and HOPE is that G_D--U.R. is far more AWARE
than any intelligent physical species in the vast Cosmos.
!
And that G_D
Is EVERLASTING INTELLIGENT PROCESS who will carry billions
of brief intelligent moral individual lives in its memory!
I know this is a 'hail, mary'-Hope (very unlikely based on all known science :-(
IF the TEACHER
is correct, then I agree with the philosopher Albert Camus that REALITY IS
ABSURD!!
IF Reality and Life came about by CHANCE or DETERMINISM
Camus stated that he Rebels against this Reality
and
EMBRACE OUGHT (that which is NOT subjective, NOT relative like most atheists and anti-human nihilists Claim.
In the HOPE of the LIGHT,
Daniel Wilcox
seaquaker@gmail.com
http://infiniteoceanoflightandlove.blogspot.com/
Writing Websites: http://psalmsyawpshowls.com
http://seaquaker.com
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Monday, December 23, 2024
Be wise men and women--bring presents to every impoverished, homeless child via World Vision
During this senseless, unjust time of social delusion, oppression, persecution, abuse, and war between Christians, Muslims--endless conflict
and suffering...
similar to the tragic time of infant Yisho (Aramaic), whose birthing mother only had an animal trough for her new born...
Follow in the long journey of the wise humans and bring gifts to those in need...
a goat, clean clothes, adequate food, a fishing kit, clean water, education, loving care...
Bring deliverance from hate,
disease, poverty, human rights violations,
exploitation, the ravages of current conflicts--Orthodox Christian Russia's horrific invasion of Christian Ukraine, the mass civilian slaughter by monotheists (Muslims, Jews, Christians in the Middle East, the Congo, the Sudan, Nigeria...
Through the peace-spreading
and poverty-ending by World Vision, or some other reliable,
world-changing nonprofit.
Give hope!
Do how Jesus/Yeshua parabled of the unexpected, kind, caring acts of one traveling individual of the hated Samaritans.
Herald the Glad Tidings for the Good, the True, the Just, the Kind, the Caring...
In the Light,
Daniel Wilcox
similar to the tragic time of infant Yisho (Aramaic), whose birthing mother only had an animal trough for her new born...
Follow in the long journey of the wise humans and bring gifts to those in need...
a goat, clean clothes, adequate food, a fishing kit, clean water, education, loving care...
Bring deliverance from hate,
disease, poverty, human rights violations,
exploitation, the ravages of current conflicts--Orthodox Christian Russia's horrific invasion of Christian Ukraine, the mass civilian slaughter by monotheists (Muslims, Jews, Christians in the Middle East, the Congo, the Sudan, Nigeria...
Through the peace-spreading
and poverty-ending by World Vision, or some other reliable,
world-changing nonprofit.
Give hope!
Do how Jesus/Yeshua parabled of the unexpected, kind, caring acts of one traveling individual of the hated Samaritans.
Herald the Glad Tidings for the Good, the True, the Just, the Kind, the Caring...
In the Light,
Daniel Wilcox
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Wednesday, December 18, 2024
"Son of Human" Jewish reformer's own chosen name; Honored each December
One "Son of Man"
So awe hoped the birthing
of G_d's presence, new cauled
in humble manger's smells,
The base and apex of
a starred cave's presents
of all future festivals
Yet abandoned, forsaken to
the crowned world's nails,
every human's cursedness;
Farthest reach of hope
this Apocalypso dancer
crosses our history,
Morning us night-less;
he compassions earth
ever peopling progress,
Emptying the pitiless bottom
zeroing Apollyon
into ever's now Present
Beloved human, Eashoa,
Jesus, child of the masses
point man for us all.
1st pub. in The The Greensilk Journal
In the LIGHT of the Good, the True, the Just,
Daniel Wilcox
So awe hoped the birthing
of G_d's presence, new cauled
in humble manger's smells,
The base and apex of
a starred cave's presents
of all future festivals
Yet abandoned, forsaken to
the crowned world's nails,
every human's cursedness;
Farthest reach of hope
this Apocalypso dancer
crosses our history,
Morning us night-less;
he compassions earth
ever peopling progress,
Emptying the pitiless bottom
zeroing Apollyon
into ever's now Present
Beloved human, Eashoa,
Jesus, child of the masses
point man for us all.
1st pub. in The The Greensilk Journal
In the LIGHT of the Good, the True, the Just,
Daniel Wilcox
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Tuesday, December 10, 2024
The Feeling of the Earth: speculative novel starts with Quaker Family on the Oregon Trail, 1842
The Feeling of the Earth
From 1842, when a Quaker family on the Oregon Trail...
till 2066 at MegaLA...includes accurate
American history but from a speculative
angle, where extraterrestrial anthropologists
have hyperdrived here to study this alien race—the human species
1 The 3rd Alien
2 Return of the Tactilization
3 Driven Out
4 Into the Maelstrom
5 Blue Bellies
6 Shut Down
7 The Bushwhackers
8 Orphaned
9 Communion
10 Death and Disunion
11 Down Texas-Messed Way
12 North to Alaska
13 Treasure and Loss
14 1st Flight
15 Boulder Dam High-Scalers
16 Counter Culture
17 Summer of Love in the Haight
18 3 Sons of Abraham, Palestine-Israel
19 Descending Among Us
20 Mars Hub
21 The Limitness of Humanness
22 FeelSire Corporation
23 Epilogue
Chapter One: The Third Alien
Nebraska Territory, 1842
New wheel ruts deeply marred the grassy area near the stream of Clear Creek. The native crouched down and examined long furrows dug deep into the wet ground. Alarmed, he turned to stone and scanned the landscape, holding his breath for a long time. But no human sound.
Only sparrows chittered in clumps of elms hanging over the thin water--rippling, wide and shallow. Pebbles shimmered on its sandy bottom. Eastward, the stream flowed, winding away amongst the grassy loafed hills. No unusual movement. Through tall elms, a flat stone ridge loomed, Table Rock. A squirrel scampered by.
The native bent low and shoved his hand down into one deep mud scar--half a foot deep! He seethed. Those accursed wagons of the pale aliens invading their land, following the wide, flat muddy Nebraskier River westward!
Last year, the invaders had gotten warriors of the Oto drunk on firewater! Stupid tribe, trading beaver pelt for poison drink. Thank you, Great Spirit that my people, the Chaticks-si-chaticks (Men of men), never betray others for drink. We’re not a twisting snake like the Oto.
Only 3 moons ago, lazy Oto thieves had slunk into his village of Weeping Water while he and other warriors were out hunting, the women and children working in their vegetable field. Had stolen his prize ceremonial shirt which his dear spouse had created from large deer hide, a big deer he had shot 3 years ago.
True, I did sell my last catch of beaver to that alien 4 years ago, an ugly2-faced English, but I only did so because we needed supplies, winter early that year. But I won’t sell to those vicious cowards—defilers—ever again!
I, Wore Wolf Teeth of the Chaticks-si-chaticks, swear to it.
He brushed one hand through the single ridge of stiffened hair that roostered up from his mostly shaven head. Then he stood up and swept his gaze over the terrain once more, peering at rock out-croppings, and up a few arroyos.
Peering toward the east, Wore Wolf Teeth wondered what other evils lay back there yet to come this way and curse their lives. Last summer, the hairy invaders had slaughtered over a thousand bison near the very wide, flat, muddy Nebraskier River. Crazy aliens, such evil waste! A day of madness.
Stark images filled Wore’s mind. When he and several other warriors had ridden onto that scene, rotting stink had assaulted them. Hundreds of reeking carcasses of bison lay abandoned on the plains--rich meat rotting and bloating, crowded with skin-islands of flies in the hot summer sun. All that meat would have fed his tribe and others for over a year!
But those aliens had only skinned the shaggy hides from fallen beasts, ignoring, abandoning such a wealth of meat; instead, they had piled hundreds of bison pelts high into their moving lodges and left. Only wheel scars and hundreds of carcasses remained for scavengers.
Greedy scum!
On that shameful day, the sun had blazed hot like now today; yes, the season of sweating. Alert again, he quickly scanned the area here. Nothing. But why had these wagons come southerly to Cleer Creek? Who knows what English are about?! Maybe they found the muddy Nebraskier too undrinkable?
Probably stopped here because of this abundant spring. If his tribe hadn’t settled at the falls westward, this brook might be good, But only if it never dried up. Wore walked over to Clear Creek and scooped up a cool drink with his right hand.
He would return to his village, speak in the counsel and, maybe, they would mount a war party to deal with these new wagon-aliens.
He wiped sweat from his brow, grime from his palm, streaking his forehead and brushed one hand through the single ridge of stiffened hair that roostered up from his mostly shaven head. Then, he knelt and scooped up a cool drink with one hand. Wore stood back up and swept his gaze over the terrain once more, peering at out cropping, the Table Rock, and up a few narrow arroyos. No humans.
Suddenly, a covey of quail swarled up from a thicket and winged over the muddy ruts. He dropped flat, then like a bull snake slithered into close brush, listening for the sound of hooves, or boot steps, or even muffled breathing. Nothing! Only the creek’s gurgle.
But then as he peered out through branches, the sky tore open--abruptly, distorting, and bubbling out, a darkness looking at first like a black globbed mass, like dark spittle on a French trapper's beard, but then widening, widening, widening...until Wore Wolf Teeth inched back with dread.
This deadly vision came from the spirits, not from any bodied foe. Yet the horrid sky omen boded nothing like his good quest dream he had received when becoming a brave a few seasons back on the southern plains.
The dark, translucent bubble continued enlarging until it loomed greater than a dozen lodges back at his village of the Weeping Water. What horrendous spirit up above expanding until it gaped far vaster than a huge thunderhead just before a storm?
Wolf Teeth lay still, at one with the many stones under him. Above, the distorted cavern swallowed the sky--endless, coal black, a dark horror, similar to the murky cave he had climbed down into when a scared small boy.
Out of the cavernous maw charged, stormed, a moving drab-gray monster. A monstrous evil spirit?!
Or is it a severe warning omen to him from the Great Spirit?
Wore didn't know, but for the 1st time in his 23 years, he shivered despite the heat. Even when he had counted coup against the Arapahoe, disdaining their warriors and had to pull out a thrown lance from his bleeding arm, while hanging to the stolen horse's mane, even then he had not been afraid.
No fear then, but so alive and glorious, so triumphant, he and his fellow warriors had galloped across the plains. But not now…now fear ate at his gut like a huge vulture. I’m being truly tested. He gripped his medicine bag hanging from his neck, crawled out of the brush, stood and yelled, "I am of the Chaticks-si-chaticks (Men of men)!
Above, the dark gray spirit hovered pulsating, and behind it the sky, endless tar, a smoked abyss.
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About 3 miles away, horses of an Oregon-bound wagon train skittered and bucked, one large roan knocking its rider to the ground. Men looked up in shock, bewildered by the sudden darkness. Even the chatter of many children ceased. In the 3rd Conestoga wagon, Neil O'Brian stared up into the blackness and held his breath.
One of the scouts shouted a warning, "Halt!"
But then, just as the sudden blackness had come, the abyss of color vanished and the blazing glare of the sun returned. Almost immediately hundreds of voices from wagons rushed to fill the still air. Neil turned to Naomi, his wife who had come up behind him from the back of their wagon, and said, "Strange. What an incongruity! Suddenly that vast thunderhead dominates the sky, confuses us, then vanishes."
"It might be a sign from the Light," she said as she leaned close to him where he sat, reins in hand.
Before Neil could answer, the wagons in front of them began moving again. He turned and flicked the reins. His wife backed into the shade of the covering and lifted up their 6-month old daughter Hannah, singing softly a Quaker melody.
Neil thought about the strange atmospheric phenomenon, remembering a few texts he had read at law school which had mentioned a similar strange sky a few years back. Sounded like superstition to him, but what could have caused such an atmospheric disturbance?
Then Neil returned to contemplating their future, about their chances in the Oregon Territory. He was glad they weren't staying here on endless, treeless plains-- Nebraska Territory. Not that it didn't have potential, but except near creeks, it was too dry. No wonder some commentators called this a vast desert.
What a contrast to last week when they had camped back near the Missouri River where the land stood thick with tall timber—heavily forested bluffs, luxurious.
His horses followed 3 Prairie Schooners in front of their wagon, and there were 13 behind, as they rolled alongside the wide river of the Platte (he knew the word meant 'flat' in French, coined by the early explorers). Also, more and more, the rolling hills of the eastern Nebraska territory now lowered, the land flattening, turning to prairie, seemingly endless plains.
Holding the reins with one hand, Neil took a swig of warm water from his canteen. He momentarily contemplated whether the French term was the best name for the wide river, or if they should have kept the Oto Indian word, Nebraskier, meaning "flat water."
He wiped sweat from his face with his forearm again. So blazing hot! Such a contrast to the downpour of five days ago that had created a muddy mess. This excruciating heat wasn't great either and the air seemed to exude moisture. His shirt clung to his chest and back, utterly drenched as if he had taken a dunk in the nearby river, though the water didn't look deep enough to get baptized in if he was a one of the Dunkers, not a Friend.
The horses plugged along the hoof-punched mud trail; he tied the reins to the post, yanked off his dripping shirt, wiped his face and arms, and wrapped it around his neck to ward off more sunburn there.
Below his left rib, he noticed the large scar from the battle in Tennessee against the Cherokee. It welted livid against his dark tan. Jagged memory--he again saw his partner holding a small bloody scalp, a child’s and whooping with delight, telling Neil how they'd get rid of all of the red vermin, cursed aliens.
Neil cussed! Banished that bloodied memory. He flicked the reins so the horses bounded ahead, pulling him closer to the forward wagon. He could hear the chatter of children inside, and thought of his own baby and Naomi behind him within their wagon. She had stopped singing. Had heard him curse.
Scanning out across the shallow water on his left, he tried to see the far side of the river. Then he turned back and looked to see what Naomi was doing. Their baby, Hannah, lay wrapped tightly in a thin sheet, asleep on a Quaker quilt covering their small mattress that rested on packing crates.
Naomi sat behind the infant, peeling potatoes, her blouse damp against her bosom and pleasingly open at the neck, her long mahogany hair a tumble of wrap on her head, a few wisps clinging to the sweat on her skin.
"Hey Love,” Neil said, “how about bringing me some tea?"
Naomi looked up at her man, and smiled. “Sure, Neil.” She reached down under the side of the mattress and pulled out a large stone jar. Then hefted it up, tipped, and poured out brown tea into a glass mason jar.
Naomi was proud of her man, though sometimes now, she wished she were still in Philadelphia and teaching at Penn Quaker School, not out here on this rough trek, not missing her deceased parents. And that he wouldn’t sometimes curse.
She edged forward holding onto the crates so as to not spill any liquid as their wagon rocked and jostled over uneven ground. One wheel slid into a deep rain-rut and the wagon lurched. But Naomi caught herself with a hand against one of the stays of the fabric cover.
Neil grabbed the reins calming the horses as they righted the wagon and plodded on again. He felt her hand on his bare shoulder, turned and looked down into her luminous eyes, great with kissed closeness. Wanted to swoop her up into his arms, but he only visually caressed her, with intensity into her irises, and took the tumbler from her calloused hands, and turned back to watch the horses.
She let her hand linger on his shoulder, then slid it down his side and mischievously pinched him. He sloshed his tea, some slurping over the rim and landing on his legs. He grabbed for her hand but she had retreated. He hollered back over his head, “Just you wait, you’ve got yours comin’ later you ornery sprite. Is that kind of tomfoolery proper for a school marm?”
Her gentle laughter came to him as she picked up their 6-month-old daughter, no doubt holding her close, probably giving her to breast. And he thanked the God above for his wife.
Then in a lawyer-like moment marveled that he still was using high-falutin’ literary terms such as ‘sprite’ and ‘tomfoolery’ out here in the wild west of Nebraska Territory where so many pioneers and trappers couldn’t even write basic prose, let alone reference allusions.
Should he have stayed in Rhode Island and finished his law courses? But then they wouldn’t have had many exciting times crossing to Missouri! Of course, then they wouldn’t have had to bury her folks and the 216 other dead he had interred in St. Louis, dead from the pox, while waiting for spring to head out west.
And that other death—back in Tennessee, his friend holding that dripping scalp of the little Cherokee savage he had scalped…No! Don’t think of that.
Think of his sweetheart behind him in the wagon. Image him with Naomi; she in her sedate Quaker dress, but all heat and passion hidden within. What a wedding night! He grinned. Created their little one.
Better not dwell on that. Maybe if they hadn’t decided to go west, they could have settled in Providence after their wedding and shown her his small village where he grew up? Gotten her a small frame house, and she could be tending their daughter and walking down to Penn's Dry Goods...
Instead, they had fought Indians in Tennessee--mainly Cherokee; afterward, many corpses of the savages, their lodges burning from their arson, and a child’s dripping scalp in his friend’s hand. Guilt drowned him. Stop it!
Neil looked ahead at the wagon in front of him and wondered how long before they reached low falls of Weeping Water where they would begin to look for a camp site. Hopefully, they wouldn’t encounter any Pawnee or Oto.
A horde of flies circled him and he batted at them. His horses were sweating profusely, too, and these endless flies seemed to have swarmed up from Egypt, compliments of Moses. Speaking of the Good Book, he now heard Naomi singing a scripture passage to their daughter. She was versing something about being kind to the aliens in your midst.
Yeah right! Neil grimaced. Sometimes Scripture was downright stupid! Savage aliens! That’s what these redskins were. They deserved no mercy!
Natives would attack and slaughter families in their farms, even way lay whole wagon trains without warning. Massacring women and children! But his friend’s bloody trophy seared his conscience. Get off my back, God; that only happened because they attacked first!
Furthermore, Indian women would mutilate the bodies worse than their warrior husbands! Neil glanced over toward clumps of box elders by the river; feeling conflicted between his lawyer self and his commitment to the Society of Friends with his wife, he frowned, spit, and tried to think of something else.
Again, Neil swung at the flies swarming around him and their horses. Hmm...well, he supposed if he were a savage, then white folks would seem like aliens, too. Then the small bloody trophy in his laughing buddy's hand, dripped into his conscience, a stark vivid script on the wall of his mind, but he cursed again and argued the guilt down. Why would God emphasize they had to care for alien natives?
He flicked the horses angrily to speed them up as he realized he had fallen back a few yards. What about the German immigrant in the Ohio valley who we had found with his entrails torn out of his body and then his very intestines wrapped all the way around an oak tree, tied there by his own guts left to bleed to death slowly. Savage torture! To hell with the dark aliens inhabiting open land. They deserved whatever they got and more
The wagon in front of him stopped again!
"What now?" Neil asked, wondered as he stood up and stared ahead. If the wagon train kept stopping, they wouldn't make it to Chimney Rock for days, and then they might get caught in early snow before they got to pass over the Rockies.
Neil waited--hopefully not hostile natives. Out here they were likely to attack. Taking off his brown hat, he wiped sweat and grime from his forehead. Then glanced up toward the glaring sun and ran fingers through his damp hair.
He turned back to the hooped opening behind him. Inside, below in muted light, on their mattress sitting on top of kegs and large trunks, Naomi nursed Hannah. Neil grinned wide remembering the rambunctious night only 15 months ago, right after they had seen the justice of the peace and had a small Quaker wedding where they exchanged commmitments. The Friends used no clergy for that.
But then he bit his lip as other images which crowded in--the shallow grave he had dug for her parents, their skin all pocked up, only 2 of hundreds of people who had frenzied to death in the epidemic that had descended on St. Louis for months.
So many thousands crowded together in that town, prepareing for their long journeys across the west on the Oregon and other trails. At least though neither he nor Naomi had gotten the Missouri plague.
Shouts interrupted his remembrances; coming at a gallop, a scout dashed up to the wagon in front, waving his beaver hat to emphasize his shouting.
Quicky, Neil looped the reins on a wagon stay, jumped to the ground, and rushed forward.
The trail guide trotted toward him shouting agin; the short French Canadian, with that trapper's hat. Pulling up, he said again, "We got problems; one of our scouts hasn’t returned. And there’s horse tracks up ahead; probably Pawnee. Some of 'em are passive these days, but they attacked a train a few weeks back. Get out yer rifle ‘n stay eagle-eyed." Before Neil could answer, the Frenchie giddied his horse and trotted on to the next wagon behind.
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After their tachyon ship flung out of hyperspace, bursting from the bubbled warp into this blue wonder of a world, Uzx mentally felted all this amazing surface water! His own world had none. And grassy undulating plains, bluffs, and real surface streams below. He felt deep inner desire to skxxx in meditation.
"Oh such tactile wealth!" his skin yelled in joyful anticipation. "What luxuriating wonder." He virtually caressed the strange plants growing up from the grassy terrain near flowing streams. "And so much water visible above ground--zzhg!" He smiled; he would tactile for many rotations in skxxx.
So what if this is a small planet rotating a minor yellow sun. True, data feeling into him from the ship emphasized there were also no great technocities here--no extensive statistics to be analyzed and statted; and the conscious inhabitants were only skinny primate, many illiterate, and missing tails! And of a limited intelligence at that.
But still, what a marvel; this world and its main intelligent species showed promise for anthropologizing. He grinned wide and shifted his feel on the instruments. Data came in on one of the primates below. The earth alien was spying up at the ship using only his visual percepters and the aural lobes in his head.
Probably not a threat--obviously incapable of distance-feeling, only has basic self-consciousness, pre-literate, dark-skinned, strong energy level and brave, but strangely overly filled with dread.
The native's four-legged mammal-rider shook itself and hoofed the ground. Not dangerous, but tactilely fascinating, especially the long main of hair on its neck. The horse stopped moving and lowered its head to a shallow stream where it had been drinking. It was restricted by a cord tied to one of a few tall many-limbed plants--ah yes, the term, trees. "Thanks for the identification, data director," Uzx felted to the ship’s computer center.
Uzx virtually skinned the horizon. A few points to the south over the terrain many other primates were vocalizing so loudly, he was surprised that the dark-skinned one couldn't hear them. These aliens seemed to have no inner means of communication. Rather embarrassing--yakking loudly like a bunch of pxzlzs! And they were moving in primitive conveyances.
Neither did these other human aliens have that stiff hair ridge on a shaved head or dark skin like the first earthling. Instead, they wore fiber coverings over their longish hair hair; and some of their male faces sprouted heavy bushed hair below their sense organs and intake orifices. So much bare skin would have been off-putting if he weren't a scientist. Uzx briefly reflected warmly on his many tail brother and sisters, thoroughly covered in luxuriant fur.
Back to work, Uzx quickly accessed 139 different mental states. Most were upset because one of their leaders had found tracks belonging to the lone native's mammal. Now the leader was riding his mammal back along the primitive conveyances shouting out warnings. So much loud clucking!
Rather oddly funny. Uzx's skin laughed. The leading primate hadn't even taken a moment to stick his multi-pronged appendages into feel the semicircular shapes of the tracks in the rich loam of the muddy soil that he was yelling about. What a waste of tactile!
Musing, he considered options; maybe he should quantum those primitive gunpowder tubes attached to their waists or held by some in their hands. Oh, he could do that later after his complete survey and all the data collection finished.
Shifting on his large feet, he adjusted the back support of his tail, still intrigued that the alien primates had no tail and such tiny feet!
Focused again back to the terrain where the first earth being still hid, but ignoring him, Uzx virtual felted many small finning creatures in the surface water of the shallow creek. What would they skin like when he actually touched those primitive life forms? What would his own planet of Orxx be like if it had surface water and such creatures, too?
Uzx touched the data flow and the weird slimy creatures flapped their fins in panic and zipped about in the stream. What a strange amazing world so diffferent from his own and from other planets he had studied. Oh thanks to the All-Ultimate that he had careered as an alienologist. Surely, no other sirehold compared.
Next, he scanned with his skin across the landscape to where thousands of large shaggy four-legged creatures congregated at a much larger body of surface water, a river. Uzx considered feltdentifying into one of the herd for his 1st skxx, but then remembered the bloated carcasses he had accessed from the hiding native's mind. He remembered his own great sire's wise quote: “Forefeeling leads to felthood."
So, cautioning himself--his felting into the large beasts might start a stampeded, Uzx widened the range of his felt-sensing for more input. Thankfully, the scanning ability of their research ship's data director was nearly endless.
Later he would focus on one of the alien families, probably the one of only 3 in the 3rd primitive wagon back in the line of human travelers. Why such a measly-sized family?
Only one infant! And not safe in a maternal’s pouch, because she was a primate, didn’t have one!
Yet her curly-bearded mate and she nursing a tiny infant within under that vegetative gray-white covering intrigued him. Her husband his mate showed more erudition than any of the others--some were illiterate like the native 3 miles away! Her male was conscientious and ardent, and spiritual, yet skeptical--fascinating. A worthy in depth study.
But the alien had a tragic grieving past. Uzx uploaded his brain memories for storage.
Too bad there were no earth marsupials nearby. Later later, he would flash-point down to that southern continent that seemed to have the most, but not one intelligent self-aware; see what genetic similarity they might have to his own species on Orxx, whether the All-Ultimate had created them with the same basic code on this far distant small planet.
Then he brought his star ship into a very low circling pattern, scanning through the possibilities for an enclone via the data director. Eliminating flyers (though very intriguing), and low-intelligent reptiles.
He needed a creature with fur, non-intrusive, maybe even a bit fun--Ah there, he felted a furry, smallish--actually tiny--mammal who tunneled and was mostly ignored except by the winged ones. It would be perfect for his 1st feeling of this planet, despite the creature's stupidity, or rather because that would make the inclone mind-meld less intrusive or difficult.
Below in their burrow, its inhabitants suddenly scurried about sensing an invasion of their sanctuary. A fairly large male collapsed in a tunnel near the surface mound in the tall prairie grass.
Then it awoke a genius.
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Wore Wolf Teeth lay still like rock even after that demon of dread had vanished from the dark sky above. Now only intensive blue remained and the hot blazing sun. Not a cloud in the sky.
He peered through various holes in the thick brush, and waited and waited, but the monstrous thing didn't return. Nowhere was the huge black tunnel or the dreadful spirit that had come lunging out of it. Slowly, Wore snaked backward ignoring abrasions and cuts on his stomach and legs from shards of rock and thorns.
But then he heard the distinctive noise of slow-moving hooves. He shut from his mind the strange spirit and focused on what he did know. A rider was coming this way, secretively. Not an native. Extricating himself from the heavy thicket, Wore ran silently through the elms to the flat stone ridge of the Table Rock...
To be continued
In the Light,
Daniel Wilcox
From 1842, when a Quaker family on the Oregon Trail...
till 2066 at MegaLA...includes accurate
American history but from a speculative
angle, where extraterrestrial anthropologists
have hyperdrived here to study this alien race—the human species
1 The 3rd Alien
2 Return of the Tactilization
3 Driven Out
4 Into the Maelstrom
5 Blue Bellies
6 Shut Down
7 The Bushwhackers
8 Orphaned
9 Communion
10 Death and Disunion
11 Down Texas-Messed Way
12 North to Alaska
13 Treasure and Loss
14 1st Flight
15 Boulder Dam High-Scalers
16 Counter Culture
17 Summer of Love in the Haight
18 3 Sons of Abraham, Palestine-Israel
19 Descending Among Us
20 Mars Hub
21 The Limitness of Humanness
22 FeelSire Corporation
23 Epilogue
Chapter One: The Third Alien
Nebraska Territory, 1842
New wheel ruts deeply marred the grassy area near the stream of Clear Creek. The native crouched down and examined long furrows dug deep into the wet ground. Alarmed, he turned to stone and scanned the landscape, holding his breath for a long time. But no human sound.
Only sparrows chittered in clumps of elms hanging over the thin water--rippling, wide and shallow. Pebbles shimmered on its sandy bottom. Eastward, the stream flowed, winding away amongst the grassy loafed hills. No unusual movement. Through tall elms, a flat stone ridge loomed, Table Rock. A squirrel scampered by.
The native bent low and shoved his hand down into one deep mud scar--half a foot deep! He seethed. Those accursed wagons of the pale aliens invading their land, following the wide, flat muddy Nebraskier River westward!
Last year, the invaders had gotten warriors of the Oto drunk on firewater! Stupid tribe, trading beaver pelt for poison drink. Thank you, Great Spirit that my people, the Chaticks-si-chaticks (Men of men), never betray others for drink. We’re not a twisting snake like the Oto.
Only 3 moons ago, lazy Oto thieves had slunk into his village of Weeping Water while he and other warriors were out hunting, the women and children working in their vegetable field. Had stolen his prize ceremonial shirt which his dear spouse had created from large deer hide, a big deer he had shot 3 years ago.
True, I did sell my last catch of beaver to that alien 4 years ago, an ugly2-faced English, but I only did so because we needed supplies, winter early that year. But I won’t sell to those vicious cowards—defilers—ever again!
I, Wore Wolf Teeth of the Chaticks-si-chaticks, swear to it.
He brushed one hand through the single ridge of stiffened hair that roostered up from his mostly shaven head. Then he stood up and swept his gaze over the terrain once more, peering at rock out-croppings, and up a few arroyos.
Peering toward the east, Wore Wolf Teeth wondered what other evils lay back there yet to come this way and curse their lives. Last summer, the hairy invaders had slaughtered over a thousand bison near the very wide, flat, muddy Nebraskier River. Crazy aliens, such evil waste! A day of madness.
Stark images filled Wore’s mind. When he and several other warriors had ridden onto that scene, rotting stink had assaulted them. Hundreds of reeking carcasses of bison lay abandoned on the plains--rich meat rotting and bloating, crowded with skin-islands of flies in the hot summer sun. All that meat would have fed his tribe and others for over a year!
But those aliens had only skinned the shaggy hides from fallen beasts, ignoring, abandoning such a wealth of meat; instead, they had piled hundreds of bison pelts high into their moving lodges and left. Only wheel scars and hundreds of carcasses remained for scavengers.
Greedy scum!
On that shameful day, the sun had blazed hot like now today; yes, the season of sweating. Alert again, he quickly scanned the area here. Nothing. But why had these wagons come southerly to Cleer Creek? Who knows what English are about?! Maybe they found the muddy Nebraskier too undrinkable?
Probably stopped here because of this abundant spring. If his tribe hadn’t settled at the falls westward, this brook might be good, But only if it never dried up. Wore walked over to Clear Creek and scooped up a cool drink with his right hand.
He would return to his village, speak in the counsel and, maybe, they would mount a war party to deal with these new wagon-aliens.
He wiped sweat from his brow, grime from his palm, streaking his forehead and brushed one hand through the single ridge of stiffened hair that roostered up from his mostly shaven head. Then, he knelt and scooped up a cool drink with one hand. Wore stood back up and swept his gaze over the terrain once more, peering at out cropping, the Table Rock, and up a few narrow arroyos. No humans.
Suddenly, a covey of quail swarled up from a thicket and winged over the muddy ruts. He dropped flat, then like a bull snake slithered into close brush, listening for the sound of hooves, or boot steps, or even muffled breathing. Nothing! Only the creek’s gurgle.
But then as he peered out through branches, the sky tore open--abruptly, distorting, and bubbling out, a darkness looking at first like a black globbed mass, like dark spittle on a French trapper's beard, but then widening, widening, widening...until Wore Wolf Teeth inched back with dread.
This deadly vision came from the spirits, not from any bodied foe. Yet the horrid sky omen boded nothing like his good quest dream he had received when becoming a brave a few seasons back on the southern plains.
The dark, translucent bubble continued enlarging until it loomed greater than a dozen lodges back at his village of the Weeping Water. What horrendous spirit up above expanding until it gaped far vaster than a huge thunderhead just before a storm?
Wolf Teeth lay still, at one with the many stones under him. Above, the distorted cavern swallowed the sky--endless, coal black, a dark horror, similar to the murky cave he had climbed down into when a scared small boy.
Out of the cavernous maw charged, stormed, a moving drab-gray monster. A monstrous evil spirit?!
Or is it a severe warning omen to him from the Great Spirit?
Wore didn't know, but for the 1st time in his 23 years, he shivered despite the heat. Even when he had counted coup against the Arapahoe, disdaining their warriors and had to pull out a thrown lance from his bleeding arm, while hanging to the stolen horse's mane, even then he had not been afraid.
No fear then, but so alive and glorious, so triumphant, he and his fellow warriors had galloped across the plains. But not now…now fear ate at his gut like a huge vulture. I’m being truly tested. He gripped his medicine bag hanging from his neck, crawled out of the brush, stood and yelled, "I am of the Chaticks-si-chaticks (Men of men)!
Above, the dark gray spirit hovered pulsating, and behind it the sky, endless tar, a smoked abyss.
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About 3 miles away, horses of an Oregon-bound wagon train skittered and bucked, one large roan knocking its rider to the ground. Men looked up in shock, bewildered by the sudden darkness. Even the chatter of many children ceased. In the 3rd Conestoga wagon, Neil O'Brian stared up into the blackness and held his breath.
One of the scouts shouted a warning, "Halt!"
But then, just as the sudden blackness had come, the abyss of color vanished and the blazing glare of the sun returned. Almost immediately hundreds of voices from wagons rushed to fill the still air. Neil turned to Naomi, his wife who had come up behind him from the back of their wagon, and said, "Strange. What an incongruity! Suddenly that vast thunderhead dominates the sky, confuses us, then vanishes."
"It might be a sign from the Light," she said as she leaned close to him where he sat, reins in hand.
Before Neil could answer, the wagons in front of them began moving again. He turned and flicked the reins. His wife backed into the shade of the covering and lifted up their 6-month old daughter Hannah, singing softly a Quaker melody.
Neil thought about the strange atmospheric phenomenon, remembering a few texts he had read at law school which had mentioned a similar strange sky a few years back. Sounded like superstition to him, but what could have caused such an atmospheric disturbance?
Then Neil returned to contemplating their future, about their chances in the Oregon Territory. He was glad they weren't staying here on endless, treeless plains-- Nebraska Territory. Not that it didn't have potential, but except near creeks, it was too dry. No wonder some commentators called this a vast desert.
What a contrast to last week when they had camped back near the Missouri River where the land stood thick with tall timber—heavily forested bluffs, luxurious.
His horses followed 3 Prairie Schooners in front of their wagon, and there were 13 behind, as they rolled alongside the wide river of the Platte (he knew the word meant 'flat' in French, coined by the early explorers). Also, more and more, the rolling hills of the eastern Nebraska territory now lowered, the land flattening, turning to prairie, seemingly endless plains.
Holding the reins with one hand, Neil took a swig of warm water from his canteen. He momentarily contemplated whether the French term was the best name for the wide river, or if they should have kept the Oto Indian word, Nebraskier, meaning "flat water."
He wiped sweat from his face with his forearm again. So blazing hot! Such a contrast to the downpour of five days ago that had created a muddy mess. This excruciating heat wasn't great either and the air seemed to exude moisture. His shirt clung to his chest and back, utterly drenched as if he had taken a dunk in the nearby river, though the water didn't look deep enough to get baptized in if he was a one of the Dunkers, not a Friend.
The horses plugged along the hoof-punched mud trail; he tied the reins to the post, yanked off his dripping shirt, wiped his face and arms, and wrapped it around his neck to ward off more sunburn there.
Below his left rib, he noticed the large scar from the battle in Tennessee against the Cherokee. It welted livid against his dark tan. Jagged memory--he again saw his partner holding a small bloody scalp, a child’s and whooping with delight, telling Neil how they'd get rid of all of the red vermin, cursed aliens.
Neil cussed! Banished that bloodied memory. He flicked the reins so the horses bounded ahead, pulling him closer to the forward wagon. He could hear the chatter of children inside, and thought of his own baby and Naomi behind him within their wagon. She had stopped singing. Had heard him curse.
Scanning out across the shallow water on his left, he tried to see the far side of the river. Then he turned back and looked to see what Naomi was doing. Their baby, Hannah, lay wrapped tightly in a thin sheet, asleep on a Quaker quilt covering their small mattress that rested on packing crates.
Naomi sat behind the infant, peeling potatoes, her blouse damp against her bosom and pleasingly open at the neck, her long mahogany hair a tumble of wrap on her head, a few wisps clinging to the sweat on her skin.
"Hey Love,” Neil said, “how about bringing me some tea?"
Naomi looked up at her man, and smiled. “Sure, Neil.” She reached down under the side of the mattress and pulled out a large stone jar. Then hefted it up, tipped, and poured out brown tea into a glass mason jar.
Naomi was proud of her man, though sometimes now, she wished she were still in Philadelphia and teaching at Penn Quaker School, not out here on this rough trek, not missing her deceased parents. And that he wouldn’t sometimes curse.
She edged forward holding onto the crates so as to not spill any liquid as their wagon rocked and jostled over uneven ground. One wheel slid into a deep rain-rut and the wagon lurched. But Naomi caught herself with a hand against one of the stays of the fabric cover.
Neil grabbed the reins calming the horses as they righted the wagon and plodded on again. He felt her hand on his bare shoulder, turned and looked down into her luminous eyes, great with kissed closeness. Wanted to swoop her up into his arms, but he only visually caressed her, with intensity into her irises, and took the tumbler from her calloused hands, and turned back to watch the horses.
She let her hand linger on his shoulder, then slid it down his side and mischievously pinched him. He sloshed his tea, some slurping over the rim and landing on his legs. He grabbed for her hand but she had retreated. He hollered back over his head, “Just you wait, you’ve got yours comin’ later you ornery sprite. Is that kind of tomfoolery proper for a school marm?”
Her gentle laughter came to him as she picked up their 6-month-old daughter, no doubt holding her close, probably giving her to breast. And he thanked the God above for his wife.
Then in a lawyer-like moment marveled that he still was using high-falutin’ literary terms such as ‘sprite’ and ‘tomfoolery’ out here in the wild west of Nebraska Territory where so many pioneers and trappers couldn’t even write basic prose, let alone reference allusions.
Should he have stayed in Rhode Island and finished his law courses? But then they wouldn’t have had many exciting times crossing to Missouri! Of course, then they wouldn’t have had to bury her folks and the 216 other dead he had interred in St. Louis, dead from the pox, while waiting for spring to head out west.
And that other death—back in Tennessee, his friend holding that dripping scalp of the little Cherokee savage he had scalped…No! Don’t think of that.
Think of his sweetheart behind him in the wagon. Image him with Naomi; she in her sedate Quaker dress, but all heat and passion hidden within. What a wedding night! He grinned. Created their little one.
Better not dwell on that. Maybe if they hadn’t decided to go west, they could have settled in Providence after their wedding and shown her his small village where he grew up? Gotten her a small frame house, and she could be tending their daughter and walking down to Penn's Dry Goods...
Instead, they had fought Indians in Tennessee--mainly Cherokee; afterward, many corpses of the savages, their lodges burning from their arson, and a child’s dripping scalp in his friend’s hand. Guilt drowned him. Stop it!
Neil looked ahead at the wagon in front of him and wondered how long before they reached low falls of Weeping Water where they would begin to look for a camp site. Hopefully, they wouldn’t encounter any Pawnee or Oto.
A horde of flies circled him and he batted at them. His horses were sweating profusely, too, and these endless flies seemed to have swarmed up from Egypt, compliments of Moses. Speaking of the Good Book, he now heard Naomi singing a scripture passage to their daughter. She was versing something about being kind to the aliens in your midst.
Yeah right! Neil grimaced. Sometimes Scripture was downright stupid! Savage aliens! That’s what these redskins were. They deserved no mercy!
Natives would attack and slaughter families in their farms, even way lay whole wagon trains without warning. Massacring women and children! But his friend’s bloody trophy seared his conscience. Get off my back, God; that only happened because they attacked first!
Furthermore, Indian women would mutilate the bodies worse than their warrior husbands! Neil glanced over toward clumps of box elders by the river; feeling conflicted between his lawyer self and his commitment to the Society of Friends with his wife, he frowned, spit, and tried to think of something else.
Again, Neil swung at the flies swarming around him and their horses. Hmm...well, he supposed if he were a savage, then white folks would seem like aliens, too. Then the small bloody trophy in his laughing buddy's hand, dripped into his conscience, a stark vivid script on the wall of his mind, but he cursed again and argued the guilt down. Why would God emphasize they had to care for alien natives?
He flicked the horses angrily to speed them up as he realized he had fallen back a few yards. What about the German immigrant in the Ohio valley who we had found with his entrails torn out of his body and then his very intestines wrapped all the way around an oak tree, tied there by his own guts left to bleed to death slowly. Savage torture! To hell with the dark aliens inhabiting open land. They deserved whatever they got and more
The wagon in front of him stopped again!
"What now?" Neil asked, wondered as he stood up and stared ahead. If the wagon train kept stopping, they wouldn't make it to Chimney Rock for days, and then they might get caught in early snow before they got to pass over the Rockies.
Neil waited--hopefully not hostile natives. Out here they were likely to attack. Taking off his brown hat, he wiped sweat and grime from his forehead. Then glanced up toward the glaring sun and ran fingers through his damp hair.
He turned back to the hooped opening behind him. Inside, below in muted light, on their mattress sitting on top of kegs and large trunks, Naomi nursed Hannah. Neil grinned wide remembering the rambunctious night only 15 months ago, right after they had seen the justice of the peace and had a small Quaker wedding where they exchanged commmitments. The Friends used no clergy for that.
But then he bit his lip as other images which crowded in--the shallow grave he had dug for her parents, their skin all pocked up, only 2 of hundreds of people who had frenzied to death in the epidemic that had descended on St. Louis for months.
So many thousands crowded together in that town, prepareing for their long journeys across the west on the Oregon and other trails. At least though neither he nor Naomi had gotten the Missouri plague.
Shouts interrupted his remembrances; coming at a gallop, a scout dashed up to the wagon in front, waving his beaver hat to emphasize his shouting.
Quicky, Neil looped the reins on a wagon stay, jumped to the ground, and rushed forward.
The trail guide trotted toward him shouting agin; the short French Canadian, with that trapper's hat. Pulling up, he said again, "We got problems; one of our scouts hasn’t returned. And there’s horse tracks up ahead; probably Pawnee. Some of 'em are passive these days, but they attacked a train a few weeks back. Get out yer rifle ‘n stay eagle-eyed." Before Neil could answer, the Frenchie giddied his horse and trotted on to the next wagon behind.
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After their tachyon ship flung out of hyperspace, bursting from the bubbled warp into this blue wonder of a world, Uzx mentally felted all this amazing surface water! His own world had none. And grassy undulating plains, bluffs, and real surface streams below. He felt deep inner desire to skxxx in meditation.
"Oh such tactile wealth!" his skin yelled in joyful anticipation. "What luxuriating wonder." He virtually caressed the strange plants growing up from the grassy terrain near flowing streams. "And so much water visible above ground--zzhg!" He smiled; he would tactile for many rotations in skxxx.
So what if this is a small planet rotating a minor yellow sun. True, data feeling into him from the ship emphasized there were also no great technocities here--no extensive statistics to be analyzed and statted; and the conscious inhabitants were only skinny primate, many illiterate, and missing tails! And of a limited intelligence at that.
But still, what a marvel; this world and its main intelligent species showed promise for anthropologizing. He grinned wide and shifted his feel on the instruments. Data came in on one of the primates below. The earth alien was spying up at the ship using only his visual percepters and the aural lobes in his head.
Probably not a threat--obviously incapable of distance-feeling, only has basic self-consciousness, pre-literate, dark-skinned, strong energy level and brave, but strangely overly filled with dread.
The native's four-legged mammal-rider shook itself and hoofed the ground. Not dangerous, but tactilely fascinating, especially the long main of hair on its neck. The horse stopped moving and lowered its head to a shallow stream where it had been drinking. It was restricted by a cord tied to one of a few tall many-limbed plants--ah yes, the term, trees. "Thanks for the identification, data director," Uzx felted to the ship’s computer center.
Uzx virtually skinned the horizon. A few points to the south over the terrain many other primates were vocalizing so loudly, he was surprised that the dark-skinned one couldn't hear them. These aliens seemed to have no inner means of communication. Rather embarrassing--yakking loudly like a bunch of pxzlzs! And they were moving in primitive conveyances.
Neither did these other human aliens have that stiff hair ridge on a shaved head or dark skin like the first earthling. Instead, they wore fiber coverings over their longish hair hair; and some of their male faces sprouted heavy bushed hair below their sense organs and intake orifices. So much bare skin would have been off-putting if he weren't a scientist. Uzx briefly reflected warmly on his many tail brother and sisters, thoroughly covered in luxuriant fur.
Back to work, Uzx quickly accessed 139 different mental states. Most were upset because one of their leaders had found tracks belonging to the lone native's mammal. Now the leader was riding his mammal back along the primitive conveyances shouting out warnings. So much loud clucking!
Rather oddly funny. Uzx's skin laughed. The leading primate hadn't even taken a moment to stick his multi-pronged appendages into feel the semicircular shapes of the tracks in the rich loam of the muddy soil that he was yelling about. What a waste of tactile!
Musing, he considered options; maybe he should quantum those primitive gunpowder tubes attached to their waists or held by some in their hands. Oh, he could do that later after his complete survey and all the data collection finished.
Shifting on his large feet, he adjusted the back support of his tail, still intrigued that the alien primates had no tail and such tiny feet!
Focused again back to the terrain where the first earth being still hid, but ignoring him, Uzx virtual felted many small finning creatures in the surface water of the shallow creek. What would they skin like when he actually touched those primitive life forms? What would his own planet of Orxx be like if it had surface water and such creatures, too?
Uzx touched the data flow and the weird slimy creatures flapped their fins in panic and zipped about in the stream. What a strange amazing world so diffferent from his own and from other planets he had studied. Oh thanks to the All-Ultimate that he had careered as an alienologist. Surely, no other sirehold compared.
Next, he scanned with his skin across the landscape to where thousands of large shaggy four-legged creatures congregated at a much larger body of surface water, a river. Uzx considered feltdentifying into one of the herd for his 1st skxx, but then remembered the bloated carcasses he had accessed from the hiding native's mind. He remembered his own great sire's wise quote: “Forefeeling leads to felthood."
So, cautioning himself--his felting into the large beasts might start a stampeded, Uzx widened the range of his felt-sensing for more input. Thankfully, the scanning ability of their research ship's data director was nearly endless.
Later he would focus on one of the alien families, probably the one of only 3 in the 3rd primitive wagon back in the line of human travelers. Why such a measly-sized family?
Only one infant! And not safe in a maternal’s pouch, because she was a primate, didn’t have one!
Yet her curly-bearded mate and she nursing a tiny infant within under that vegetative gray-white covering intrigued him. Her husband his mate showed more erudition than any of the others--some were illiterate like the native 3 miles away! Her male was conscientious and ardent, and spiritual, yet skeptical--fascinating. A worthy in depth study.
But the alien had a tragic grieving past. Uzx uploaded his brain memories for storage.
Too bad there were no earth marsupials nearby. Later later, he would flash-point down to that southern continent that seemed to have the most, but not one intelligent self-aware; see what genetic similarity they might have to his own species on Orxx, whether the All-Ultimate had created them with the same basic code on this far distant small planet.
Then he brought his star ship into a very low circling pattern, scanning through the possibilities for an enclone via the data director. Eliminating flyers (though very intriguing), and low-intelligent reptiles.
He needed a creature with fur, non-intrusive, maybe even a bit fun--Ah there, he felted a furry, smallish--actually tiny--mammal who tunneled and was mostly ignored except by the winged ones. It would be perfect for his 1st feeling of this planet, despite the creature's stupidity, or rather because that would make the inclone mind-meld less intrusive or difficult.
Below in their burrow, its inhabitants suddenly scurried about sensing an invasion of their sanctuary. A fairly large male collapsed in a tunnel near the surface mound in the tall prairie grass.
Then it awoke a genius.
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Wore Wolf Teeth lay still like rock even after that demon of dread had vanished from the dark sky above. Now only intensive blue remained and the hot blazing sun. Not a cloud in the sky.
He peered through various holes in the thick brush, and waited and waited, but the monstrous thing didn't return. Nowhere was the huge black tunnel or the dreadful spirit that had come lunging out of it. Slowly, Wore snaked backward ignoring abrasions and cuts on his stomach and legs from shards of rock and thorns.
But then he heard the distinctive noise of slow-moving hooves. He shut from his mind the strange spirit and focused on what he did know. A rider was coming this way, secretively. Not an native. Extricating himself from the heavy thicket, Wore ran silently through the elms to the flat stone ridge of the Table Rock...
To be continued
In the Light,
Daniel Wilcox
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